comprehension regrets
to understand yourself is one big mystery in your life that you’ll face, you may thought you liked something but in the end you’ll came to the fact that you didn’t liked it much after all. that is what i had just experience recently. i had to quit dancing before, said to myself i won’t regret, i tried to convince myself that it wouldnt be a big part of me, but then it was, i was busy hating the people who i cant fit in the group,(not all only some, others had graduated but not all) i was to try again this year yet this personality would make me feel he’s so great and all, i was intimidated to join. i’ve been trying to convince myself that i dont need such activity yet i long for it. maybe there are just things that you want badly yet you cannot have it. same as for modeling, being timid made me regret to experience the fun of walking. i feel so depressed like ive been restricted by myself to avoid activities that i would enjoy for this last loose year of my college years. at the same time, compatibility in friends are rare even now. i seems to hate everyone even myself. there goes the bad side of life.. i wasnt permitted to join the arki ball for this arki week. sad.
anyway, theres much to do like sleeping.. is the best fun escape for me..
