bum. thats what ive been doing.. i had a dream, i cut my hair, in shoulder length.. weird.. i had more dreams that i couldnt remember.. dreams that only showed a scene or two.. leaving me cluelesss.. i also had a dream before that i can see spirits and stuff.. it freaked me out a little then when i woke up i could only remember a thing.. i was afraid i was seeing things.. haha good thing it was only a dream.. hehehe..
waaah.. im bored here.. but not that bored.. bumming here.. doing nothing though i have lots of chores to do.. waah.. this is how i waste time.. letting it slip by.. being pessimist ryt now.. hahahha waahhh.. im fearing that this comin sem it would be harder to survive.. hahhaha.. fear of failure.. where’s my positivity? i know i can make it.. but in life, there’s only one shot. bang! hahahaha.. cant put some sense in this.. hahah.. so i need to stop.. heheh.. i have what ever i need.. and im grateful for it.. i have good trusted friends.. though there some unstability within my family.. i pray it wont be enough to make me cry.. im starting to feel jealousy.. doubting generosity… why should he support them? yeah its generosity.. but then how will they learn to live when they’re spoon feed by him, they can earn for their living they just dont want to.. asking too much than what i usually ask.. he just couldn’t see how they live.. their in for their galore.. spending like they own it, just waitin to be supported? i dont know, i dont want to assume.. but its not ryt what they ask is too much.. i dont ask like that big.. he’s ours.. not for them.. now im not sure if he still love us… too much this is why i hate boredom.. i dont want to see whats around me.. though i know.. i just dont want to have a comment… i dont want to be in any side.. …. …… …… …. blah blah. but its still a nice day bumming around like this.. peace out…
sayang walang sem break outing.. sana nga meron.. kasi nga kababasa ko lng ng blog ni lagu.. tresured moments na pla kasi these moment are the last few breaks we have from school from the real world…waah an drama..
anyway today was the first day i got to realized na sem break na.. sunday, i had to rest and stay home as much as possible due to my allegies. and yesterday i went to school with marie and straight to the main building to file for an assessment form and i went home right after.. so aun.. stayed home 
hinde ko alam kung anong bago.. lagi nalang kasi na lagi akong nagrurush sa mga plates kasi tinstmad ako.. hahaha yun lang naman angtalagang problema ko.. hahaha ang katamaran.. maraming nanyari??
yes cguro.. pero kahit anung manyari malabo parin ang utak ko..
ang kulit ko parin..
to come to think of changes, i did change.. i wont recocgnize my self na ganito na ako.. i’ve grew in the world i dont want to fit in.. i forgot much of what i was before.. i want to be the person close to who i was before but this time more experienced and knowledgable..
walang period………….
this new phase, i dont know how to chase, in this case i dont know where it ends, il take risks, il take chances, but i dont know if i can take it it this end fails, for now we’ll live, il learn from you, and you’ll learn from me, if tears are shed it wont be regret, im unsure with what changes has, but we’ll be fine, and become the better person we can be.
