its time for me to make a decision, if i contine long enough i wont have the strength fight back, its starting to take me.. waah, i dnt knw what to do…
in the state of anting not to decide, wanting to have both but i should pick only one.. in the clear state of what to choose but want to keep the other choice..
i cant make a clear idea bout this…
its time for me to make a decision, if i contine long enough i wont have the strength fight back, its starting to take me.. waah, i dnt knw what to do…
in the state of anting not to decide, wanting to have both but i should pick only one.. in the clear state of what to choose but want to keep the other choice..
i cant make a clear idea bout this…
i really dont know what to do…
i dont know what i want…
i cant answer every question i have…
blurry of a decision i hope i would need to answer..
life is painful when you dont have your purpose.. havent got the time to know my purpose… hahaha… should have known it by now pero, anung ginawa ko?? hahaha.. i ignored the chance… pero one step at a time mahirap mafall uli sa world, at mabulag.. ahahah.. aun.. life is tough you need to get through it kahit you hate the things you do everyday.. whaa.. endurance.. i wish i could endure things without complaint.. hahah.. asa pa… aun… this year has been terrible, siguro dahil di pa tapos, di ko pa nafufullfil un summer time ng job na un…pero its a sense of achivement pag patapos mo, pag natiis mo un days na un.. parang military ba,… training.. pero bat ganun lagi mong maiisip na you really hate the job.. kahit ayaw mo nang isipin.. naiiisip mo pa…tpos you’re on the place na your nagging everyday dahil sa mga situation na ayaw mo… alam mo yun.. un na coconsyensya ka dahil nakakanag ka na ng ibang tao… kya nga sometimes i dont want to be involved.. i want to give up pero… He’s keeping me tight.. di pa clear kun anu sbi Nya pero… impatient parin ako.. hoping na magaagree sya sa gusto ko pero it should work the other way around.. kasi nga, Sya un guidance.. hayyy… paranoid na talaga… gusto mo nang umiyak dahil wla ka magawa… gusto mo nang maggive up pero cge tuloy ka parin na lumalaban.. buti kung related un sa course ko.. eh hinde eh…. waaaahhh….i need all the prayer and help… help through the means of other summer job that wont give me stress before i go sleep at night…????
there’s this , weird feeling , happy feeliong na makikita ko na uli sila moews!!! hahahaha.. ilove them!! makes me go gaga everytime im with them…maybe ill give you up that day.. i cannot let you be so close no longer..
every thing has been a blur.. youre there im here but nothings clear.. cant see my life as i can before.. i have to give everything up.. surrender everything, even if i want to keep you… i cant… i need him..
i cant live my life as i have before.. i cant stay with you all the way.. il be here you’ll be there, we wont be always together but i know he knows well..
i want to live life according to him.. he called me once but i still chose my decision.. he brought me back to him, not that close but somehow closer than i were.. i want to live life for him.. i want to know how.. i want him to direct me.. i wont do decisions on my own.. till he provide me with the best way he has for me..
i cant pick someone to love for he alone can decide for me….
i need peace… i need to be in your shoulder. ..comfort me o lord.. i still cant see your will through this.. i trust you.. but my human nature worries..
give me peace as i sleep through the night… give me comfort for im giving up to the world.. give me strength, give me courage… give me hope.. for its never too late for you..
hide me in your holiness oh Lord may i worship you all of my days oh Lord.. dont let me stray from your commands.. keep me in your embrace.. i have been blinded by the world.. help me o Lord to stay with you.. teach me to become teachable.. walk woth me everyday.. your the reason.. your only the reason.. the answer…
i saw you there.. cant remember what you’re doing but, i can only remember, i had butterflies when you were there.. i was bein happily insane seein you there.. in the weirdest part of me.. in my dream.. i saw you again.. why? dont know.. maybe i thought of you too much… naaahh.. not that much.. but i admit its often.. so what should i do?? aaaahh.. cant think right.. i believe you have a lot to think about.. and i should not be one of it.. there’s much in your mind.. i want to stop thinking… stop.. what i want doesnt matter..
hanging in mid air.. i really should stop.. nonsense.. hahah
